I just wanted to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!! Be safe and enjoy the season.
I have many past regrets, mainly for being too afraid of trying something new or different, not pursuing certain girls that might give me a chance, not pursuing certain dreams and letting great opportunities slip through my fingers. We all have regrets in our lives for the most part but how many of us do something to change their past?
I bring up the subject on regrets because my good friend David and I had a small discussion on the topic. I don’t look at a regret being a bad thing anymore. I came to this realization after some wise words that he sort of made up, LOL. I told him that I do have some regrets still but I also realize that I still have time to change this. Anyway, he said “Then hey aren’t regrets, just unfinished business”. I know this is just common sense but for some reason it made something click. So, from now on, if there is something in front of me and I get a feeling I am going for it, no matter what the turn out is, just except it and be happy with myself for trying.
This is going to be a tough thing for me at first, only because when I get into certain situations (Or should I say most situations) my shyness takes over. It’s very annoying but the only way to overcome this is to react before the shyness kicks in. One thing that I don’t understand about this is that I’m a very strong person and have a never give up attitude, so, where does this damn shyness come from? My whole family is outgoing and I was treated by both family and friends like I didn’t and don’t have a disability. I love them for doing this; it has been the best thing for me. I wonder if it comes from being shot down so much, hmmm, maybe but I doubt it. It could be anything though; I’m not going to worry about it anymore.
It’s time for me to make this change and become a gambler in life. I am going to fight and fight hard to get all the things that I have always wanted and needed. I won’t hurt anyone of course, it isn’t in me anyway. The struggle will mainly be with me, myself and I.
I was out of town the past four days on a short vacation. We loaded up the travel trailer and decided to try Plymouth, Ca. There really isn’t much to do there but relax and do nothing; I bet we never go there again, LOL. We did go to a local casino for a couple of hours. While I was there I hit the jackpot, no not a money jackpot but by running over some ass that wasn’t paying attention. Of course as everyone that is in a wheelchair knows, it is always our fault, LOL. Anyway, I was just driving along and this guy was walking kind of diagonal toward me. I saw him but I wanted to see if he saw me and the answer to that was, NO!!! I am always the one that has to pay attention and stop to let people go by. I don’t understand why some idiots don’t watch where they are walking? It just isn’t right. For some reason something made me want to see what would happen, I really hope that he learned his lesson. He just walked right into me and I ran over his foot, he was wearing sandals too. That wasn’t the best part though; the best part was when he screamed. He sounded like a girl, which made me take a second look at him just to make sure that it wasn’t. When this happened I just started busting out laughing. Especially when he didn’t even acknowledge me, he acted like I wasn’t even there. I did say sorry after I started the laughing though. I think that he embarrassed himself because he kept walking or shall I say that he limped off. I think the limp was just for effect to make me look like the jerk but a lot of people saw it happen, they called him the jerk and how rude he was. It was very satisfying, I usually don’t let things like this play out but sometimes you just get tired of it. Oh David, it was the ultimate “Crip Yell!!” You would have loved it, LOL.
I just have one thing to say to Kevin Goessling (Kicker for Fresno State), you are officially now the worst kicker in Bulldog history. We have lost two games this year because you can’t hit a damn field goal, it seems like you are relying on the rest of the team to score so you don’t have to. You need to start doing your job or I hope Coach Hill benches you for a couple games and makes you practice a lot more often. Football can be very frustrating to us diehard fans as you can tell.
Until next time
I don’t understand this, but I actually feel the love fading from my heart each and every day. I’m not losing love for my family, friends or the everyday things in my life. Yep, you guessed it, from the failed love attempts with the opposite sex. I say this because so many women have ripped the heart right out of my chest and stomped the shit out of it, LOL. Don’t think that I am putting the blame on women because I am also to blame. I have let some good relationships go in the past, mainly because I’m an IDIOT. Another reason for this is that I start to feel the connection fading away and notice that we have nothing in common. Actually, I just thought of the biggest reason of all and that is fear. I can’t pinpoint where that fear stems from, one thing that I can say is that when I stare into the eyes of a girl I start to freeze up. The more beautiful the eyes, the worse it is. Well, I think that all these factors are giving me the feeling of the fading heart.
Will I ever give up on finding the love of my life? I think you all know the answer to that. The answer is, Umm… No… HELL NO!!! LOL. I have to believe that she is out there. Love is all there is in this life and I have a lot to give, more than you know. I just need the right one that makes me feel comfortable and bring the true Corey out of this guy.
My brother is in Germany now and is enjoying it. Oops, did I sorry say brother? I meant to say Man whore, LOL. I keep digging a deeper hole for myself don’t I? Oh well, at least his kids think that it’s funny. Good news, he is getting word that he may not have to go to Iraq or Afghanistan. We are very happy to hear this, I hope that it stays that way. He is kind of disappointed but it’s better than bullets shooting at him. I love him too much to lose him, he is a hero to me, in more ways than you know.
Laters my friends
Well, yesterday was a sad day. My brother left for Germany for two years and it was hard for me to see him go but I tried to stay strong. I kept a smile on my face, so, that he would remember it. I do kind of have tears at the moment though. It was really hard for my mom and all three of his kids, especially his youngest. He really took it the hardest, it was really difficult to watch and really pulled at your heart. He will be back visiting before we know it and we could go visit him too at anytime, Unless he is in Iraq or Afghanistan. I know that the kids will get to visit him on their summer break or they could decide to live with him if any of them wanted to. Either way, it will be a great experience for them to see all the countries around Germany. He has already only been gone for a few hours and I REALLY, REALLY MISS HIM!!! I thank GOD for web cams, makes it great to be able to see him as we talk.
As you all know it’s Football season, I love this time of year. Anyway, this last weekend was a bad week for my teams. First, Wisconsin played against my Fresno State Bulldogs. We lost 13-10 but if it wasn’t for the damn kicker, Kevin Goessling we could have won. He made 1 out of 4 field goals, which to me is uncalled for in my book. I wanted to run into his leg, so we can get a better kicker. Now because of this loss we have no chance at getting into the BCS. My Chicago Bears also lost, I wont go into it because they could have won. Well, that’s the game for you, never know what will happen until the game is over.
Now my Fantasy Football Team is doing great, I’m 2-0 so far. That is one thing that I’m pretty good at is Fantasy Football. I know teams and players quite a bit and always do well. Plus, I could ask a couple cousins about players. They are also really into playing and one is a sports editor for a newspaper in Louisiana, so I got my sources.
I really want to blog as much as possible but it seems that I am having CWBS (Chronic Writers Block Syndrome). I get ready to write and then all of a sudden, poof, my mind goes completely blank (speaking of chronic… LOL). I must be brainless, I know that most would tend to agree but… HEY, STOP IT!!! DON’T YOU AGREE TOO!!! Maybe people are right about me, I have been known to say and do stupid things in the past. They seemed smart at the time, in actuality they were not the smartest decision for me to make. It could be the reason why I have bad luck with the ladies. Unlike my brother the Manwhore, LOL oops, I better not go into that. I could get him into trouble and then he would have to kill me, LOL. Although, it is always fun to get him into trouble, what else are younger brothers for? Am I right? Of course I am.
You know what? While I’m thinking about it, I really need a life. At the moment, it consists of gaming, movies, television, gaming, chatting, gaming, working on a couple web sites, writing a review on a device, spending time with the family, oh and gaming. Don’t you just love my life? It’s nice and all but I am so FREAKIN’ BORED!!! LOL. I need to get out more and do stuff but never know what to do. Oh well, enough about that. You didn’t hear this from me but if a woman would come into my life, then things would be different and (clear my throat) umm… In a lot of ways… funner? Whoa wait, get your mind out of the gutter. I can’t say anything without someone thinking dirty thoughts. What’s wrong with you? LOL. Anyway…
If you have any questions about anything, please ask me. It would really help with things to write about. I would appreciate ideas too. I want to keep this blog fresh and constantly updated.
Hey look, I wrote something. Lame? Yes, I agree but it’s better than nothing.
I know that it’s been awhile since my last post but I just haven’t been in the mood. Also, I’ve been busy doing other things.
Well, my brother has been home from basic for almost a month. He got his orders and and leaves September 15th, he is going to Mannheim, Germany, I would love to go with him. He is not going to be a combat cook now (the military contracts out), He has to do something different, I think it’s something with the MP Unit. We are all going to miss him and are nervous for him, if you could add him to your thoughts and prayers I would greatly appreciate it. Eventually, he will be getting deployed to either Iraq or Afghanistan. It’s scary but it is part of the job. I’m very proud of him for making this huge sacrifice for our country and for his kids. Especially his kids, he wants a better life for the three of them and to be able to afford college and health care for each of them.
Last week,we got a new rescue dog, this makes dog number six. She is around a one year old Border Collie and her name is Bobbi. Very cute dog but is a little skittish at the moment, I don’t blame her. You wouldn’t either if you knew my family, LOL. Our dog’s are very spoiled and can be a little crazy at times. We have Maddie (a Beagle), Truman (an Australian Shepard Mix), Stryker (a Spaniel mix), Sophie (a Golden Retriever) and now Bobbi.
I know that some of you are interested in how my love life is going, not sure as to why? I can answer that in one defining phrase… WTF are you talking about? LOL ;)… Don’t know what it is, Never heard of it, It is something that eludes me, ETC… ETC… ETC… LOL ;). So, if you really must know, it is going nowhere at the moment. Don’t think that I’m bitter about it or anything like that, I’m actually fine with it and I will be ready when it is my time. For now, I will just keep my life the way it is but will change some of my life for any girl if need be. My life seems boring, so any excitement or change is acceptable. BTW, I have renewed hope right now.
Laters my peeps
As most of you may know by now, the Fresno State Bulldogs are the 2008 College World Series National Champions. This is only the second National Title in school history, the first was the Women’s Softball Team in 1998. I am not really all that into Baseball but when it comes to the Diamond Dogs, consider me the biggest Baseball fan around.
Being the lowest seeded team everyone thought that they wouldn’t last very long. After winning game after game they started to become a Cinderella team, Underdogs to Wonderdogs. They knew that they were no fluke and believed in themselves. They are an inspiration and true heroes.
I have always been a proud and loyal Bulldog fan ever since I can remember. All I can say is GO DOGS!!! This is one memory that I will never forget. This and the Freedom Bowl, I was at that game, good times. Now its time for a Football National Championship, PLEASE Coach Hill!!!