Fading Away; Bro Update

I don’t understand this, but I actually feel the love fading from my heart each and every day. I’m not losing love for my family, friends or the everyday things in my life. Yep, you guessed it, from the failed love attempts with the opposite sex. I say this because so many women have ripped the heart right out of my chest and stomped the shit out of it, LOL. Don’t think that I am putting the blame on women because I am also to blame. I have let some good relationships go in the past, mainly because I’m an IDIOT. Another reason for this is that I start to feel the connection fading away and notice that we have nothing in common. Actually, I just thought of the biggest reason of all and that is fear. I can’t pinpoint where that fear stems from, one thing that I can say is that when I stare into the eyes of a girl I start to freeze up. The more beautiful the eyes, the worse it is. Well, I think that all these factors are giving me the feeling of the fading heart.

Will I ever give up on finding the love of my life? I think you all know the answer to that. The answer is, Umm… No… HELL NO!!! LOL. I have to believe that she is out there. Love is all there is in this life and I have a lot to give, more than you know. I just need the right one that makes me feel comfortable and bring the true Corey out of this guy.

My brother is in Germany now and is enjoying it. Oops, did I sorry say brother? I meant to say Man whore, LOL. I keep digging a deeper hole for myself don’t I? Oh well, at least his kids think that it’s funny. Good news, he is getting word that he may not have to go to Iraq or Afghanistan. We are very happy to hear this, I hope that it stays that way. He is kind of disappointed but it’s better than bullets shooting at him. I love him too much to lose him, he is a hero to me, in more ways than you know.

Laters my friends

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My Bro Is On His Way To Germany; Football

Well, yesterday was a sad day. My brother left for Germany for two years and it was hard for me to see him go but I tried to stay strong. I kept a smile on my face, so, that he would remember it. I do kind of have tears at the moment though. It was really hard for my mom and all three of his kids, especially his youngest. He really took it the hardest, it was really difficult to watch and really pulled at your heart. He will be back visiting before we know it and we could go visit him too at anytime, Unless he is in Iraq or Afghanistan. I know that the kids will get to visit him on their summer break or they could decide to live with him if any of them wanted to. Either way, it will be a great experience for them to see all the countries around Germany. He has already only been gone for a few hours and I REALLY, REALLY MISS HIM!!! I thank GOD for web cams, makes it great to be able to see him as we talk.

As you all know it’s Football season, I love this time of year. Anyway, this last weekend was a bad week for my teams. First, Wisconsin played against my Fresno State Bulldogs. We lost 13-10 but if it wasn’t for the damn kicker, Kevin Goessling we could have won. He made 1 out of 4 field goals, which to me is uncalled for in my book. I wanted to run into his leg, so we can get a better kicker. Now because of this loss we have no chance at getting into the BCS. My Chicago Bears also lost, I wont go into it because they could have won. Well, that’s the game for you, never know what will happen until the game is over.

Now my Fantasy Football Team is doing great, I’m 2-0 so far. That is one thing that I’m pretty good at is Fantasy Football. I know teams and players quite a bit and always do well. Plus, I could ask a couple cousins about players. They are also really into playing and one is a sports editor for a newspaper in Louisiana, so I got my sources.

Laters

CWBS

I really want to blog as much as possible but it seems that I am having CWBS (Chronic Writers Block Syndrome). I get ready to write and then all of a sudden, poof, my mind goes completely blank (speaking of chronic… LOL). I must be brainless, I know that most would tend to agree but… HEY, STOP IT!!! DON’T YOU AGREE TOO!!! Maybe people are right about me, I have been known to say and do stupid things in the past. They seemed smart at the time, in actuality they were not the smartest decision for me to make. It could be the reason why I have bad luck with the ladies. Unlike my brother the Manwhore, LOL oops, I better not go into that. I could get him into trouble and then he would have to kill me, LOL. Although, it is always fun to get him into trouble, what else are younger brothers for? Am I right? Of course I am.

You know what? While I’m thinking about it, I really need a life. At the moment, it consists of gaming, movies, television, gaming, chatting, gaming, working on a couple web sites, writing a review on a device, spending time with the family, oh and gaming. Don’t you just love my life? It’s nice and all but I am so FREAKIN’ BORED!!! LOL. I need to get out more and do stuff but never know what to do. Oh well, enough about that. You didn’t hear this from me but if a woman would come into my life, then things would be different and (clear my throat) umm… In a lot of ways… funner? Whoa wait, get your mind out of the gutter. I can’t say anything without someone thinking dirty thoughts. What’s wrong with you? LOL. Anyway…

If you have any questions about anything, please ask me. It would really help with things to write about. I would appreciate ideas too. I want to keep this blog fresh and constantly updated.

Hey look, I wrote something. Lame? Yes, I agree but it’s better than nothing.

Peace

My Bro; New Dog; Love?????

I know that it’s been awhile since my last post but I just haven’t been in the mood. Also, I’ve been busy doing other things.

Well, my brother has been home from basic for almost a month. He got his orders and and leaves September 15th, he is going to Mannheim, Germany, I would love to go with him. He is not going to be a combat cook now (the military contracts out), He has to do something different, I think it’s something with the MP Unit. We are all going to miss him and are nervous for him, if you could add him to your thoughts and prayers I would greatly appreciate it. Eventually, he will be getting deployed to either Iraq or Afghanistan. It’s scary but it is part of the job. I’m very proud of him for making this huge sacrifice for our country and for his kids. Especially his kids, he wants a better life for the three of them and to be able to afford college and health care for each of them.

Last week,we got a new rescue dog, this makes dog number six. She is around a one year old Border Collie and her name is Bobbi. Very cute dog but is a little skittish at the moment, I don’t blame her. You wouldn’t either if you knew my family, LOL. Our dog’s are very spoiled and can be a little crazy at times. We have Maddie (a Beagle), Truman (an Australian Shepard Mix), Stryker (a Spaniel mix), Sophie (a Golden Retriever) and now Bobbi.

I know that some of you are interested in how my love life is going, not sure as to why? I can answer that in one defining phrase… WTF are you talking about? LOL ;)… Don’t know what it is, Never heard of it, It is something that eludes me, ETC… ETC… ETC… LOL ;). So, if you really must know, it is going nowhere at the moment. Don’t think that I’m bitter about it or anything like that, I’m actually fine with it and I will be ready when it is my time. For now, I will just keep my life the way it is but will change some of my life for any girl if need be. My life seems boring, so any excitement or change is acceptable. BTW, I have renewed hope right now.

Laters my peeps