Regrets; OUCH!!!; Kevin Goessling

I have many past regrets, mainly for being too afraid of trying something new or different, not pursuing certain girls that might give me a chance, not pursuing certain dreams and letting great opportunities slip through my fingers. We all have regrets in our lives for the most part but how many of us do something to change their past?

I bring up the subject on regrets because my good friend David and I had a small discussion on the topic. I don’t look at a regret being a bad thing anymore. I came to this realization after some wise words that he sort of made up, LOL. I told him that I do have some regrets still but I also realize that I still have time to change this. Anyway, he said “Then hey aren’t regrets, just unfinished business”. I know this is just common sense but for some reason it made something click. So, from now on, if there is something in front of me and I get a feeling I am going for it, no matter what the turn out is, just except it and be happy with myself for trying.

This is going to be a tough thing for me at first, only because when I get into certain situations (Or should I say most situations) my shyness takes over. It’s very annoying but the only way to overcome this is to react before the shyness kicks in. One thing that I don’t understand about this is that I’m a very strong person and have a never give up attitude, so, where does this damn shyness come from? My whole family is outgoing and I was treated by both family and friends like I didn’t and don’t have a disability. I love them for doing this; it has been the best thing for me. I wonder if it comes from being shot down so much, hmmm, maybe but I doubt it. It could be anything though; I’m not going to worry about it anymore.

It’s time for me to make this change and become a gambler in life. I am going to fight and fight hard to get all the things that I have always wanted and needed. I won’t hurt anyone of course, it isn’t in me anyway. The struggle will mainly be with me, myself and I.

I was out of town the past four days on a short vacation. We loaded up the travel trailer and decided to try Plymouth, Ca. There really isn’t much to do there but relax and do nothing; I bet we never go there again, LOL. We did go to a local casino for a couple of hours. While I was there I hit the jackpot, no not a money jackpot but by running over some ass that wasn’t paying attention. Of course as everyone that is in a wheelchair knows, it is always our fault, LOL. Anyway, I was just driving along and this guy was walking kind of diagonal toward me. I saw him but I wanted to see if he saw me and the answer to that was, NO!!! I am always the one that has to pay attention and stop to let people go by. I don’t understand why some idiots don’t watch where they are walking? It just isn’t right. For some reason something made me want to see what would happen, I really hope that he learned his lesson. He just walked right into me and I ran over his foot, he was wearing sandals too. That wasn’t the best part though; the best part was when he screamed. He sounded like a girl, which made me take a second look at him just to make sure that it wasn’t. When this happened I just started busting out laughing. Especially when he didn’t even acknowledge me, he acted like I wasn’t even there. I did say sorry after I started the laughing though. I think that he embarrassed himself because he kept walking or shall I say that he limped off. I think the limp was just for effect to make me look like the jerk but a lot of people saw it happen, they called him the jerk and how rude he was. It was very satisfying, I usually don’t let things like this play out but sometimes you just get tired of it. Oh David, it was the ultimate “Crip Yell!!” You would have loved it, LOL.

I just have one thing to say to Kevin Goessling (Kicker for Fresno State), you are officially now the worst kicker in Bulldog history. We have lost two games this year because you can’t hit a damn field goal, it seems like you are relying on the rest of the team to score so you don’t have to. You need to start doing your job or I hope Coach Hill benches you for a couple games and makes you practice a lot more often. Football can be very frustrating to us diehard fans as you can tell.

Until next time

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